Not Even Meant to Be a Victim
How the child murders of the 1980s taught me early who counts—and who doesn’t I’m a child of the 1980s. The decade of Swiss child killers. That’s what I called it in my head from…
Eric with a C — Toxic Jealousy
Content note: jealousy, coercion, substance use, sexual consent Born 1977 We were the same age. We were together roughly from 2017 to 2020. When I met him, I was living on social assistance—no social ties,…
Pia: “I never thought you had feelings.”
I begin my list of Dramatis Personae with Pia—because she died last week. And because since then, she has haunted my thoughts.Others will follow at some point. Without order, without plan. Just people who shaped—or…
Ben — The Prince Who Promised, Then Poisoned
When I met Ben, I was ready for a new beginning. I was 35, had lost 75 kilos in two years thanks to a gastric bypass, and—for the first time—felt comfortable in my own skin.…
2003: A Year of Darkness
Content note: domestic violence, depression, self-harm On paper, my life looked almost perfect:I had a successful career as an ORACLE developer at Credit Suisse—a secure, well-paid job. An introverted, loving partner, Ralf—rational, reliable. A nice…
Child-on-Child Abuse: What Remains?
Paddy is my cousin—18 months older than me. Between the ages of six and eleven, he sexually abused me. It was a case of child-on-child sexual abuse—a reality many people refuse to acknowledge. As a…
From Lemmings to Action Replay — How I Fell into Computers
When I look back at how I first fell into the world of computers, I land right on my very first machine: an Amiga 500.An unassuming grey box — but it shaped my youth and…
Between Clan Conflicts and Phone Booths: How I Fell in Love with Wajdi
Some stories feel so surreal that they seem to come straight out of a novel. My first encounter with Wajdi is one such tale of bicultural love. It all began with a clan conflict —…
Meine Kaiserschnittgeburt 1977 in der Schweiz
Mein Start ins Leben war alles andere als gewöhnlich. Als ich 1977 in einem Schweizer Krankenhaus geboren wurde, war die Atmosphäre weit entfernt von den warmen, familienfreundlichen Kreisssälen, die wir heute kennen. Stattdessen war es…
Nice to the Abyss – The Beginning with Clay
I arrived in Nice like all tourists: dazzled by the glamour of the Promenade des Anglais, the charm of the old town, and the Mediterranean sun reflecting off spotless façades. Gucci bags everywhere, stylish people…